Just Saying

Again I find myself not posting everyday. I am sorry. We are all getting ready for Christmas break from school. Husband is still waiting for his mid term grades to be posted. He is very anxious about it. He is out of school now and the boys will be out at the end of the week. I will be glad to have them home.

The boys are learning how to tie their shoes. They are practicing very hard. Devin seems to be a little more coordinated I think. I have not seen Eddie do it much, so I am not sure about his progress. Devin was able once he concentrated enough. I am very proud of both of them. ?They have come so far.

One thing that I am not looking forward to is housing inspections. We have them every three months where we live. So for an entire month my house had to be perfectly clean (everywhere) until they inspect. They give one month, but no specific date which just heightens my stress level. Everyone in the neighborhood thinks that it is ridiculous to have it every three months. With the way our family lives, cleaning is a constant taks day in and day out. I will be glad when the day will come where I do not have to have the anxiety that comes with it. One of these days, I will live in my own home away from inspections.

I have not seen my therapist in a long time. I will be glad to go back. I know that she is wondering about me. I still have not gotten used to her after a year, so I get nervous and anti-social sometimes. I had once filled out an ADHD survey (this is an example) that they used to diagnose the condition. I honestly believe that I failed it terribly. She told me that I had over-rated myself and she did not see me that way. My doctor thought otherwise. Even though I have medicine, it still does not help with what I call attention problems. I mean really who knows me better than myself...my husband. We have always agreed on my issues with myself. I have been through everything that you can imagine, and I survived. Ok, just letting off some steam. I did make this my journal after all.

Thank you all for reading and I hope that you do not think I am crazy. LOL...really I am not.